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09 May, 2013

A Sister's Social Agony

if only (an ode to casey's hair)

✍ CURRENTLY WRITING FROM: VERACRUZ, MEXICO

One thing that I resent about me being the oldest sister, and not growing up with a companion close my age, is the fact that I never had anyone to impress.  I didn't try to better myself or learn from someone else's mistakes.  I couldn't talk to my father about the things I was curious about because he expected me to find a way to figure it out on my own.  I chose not to talk to my mother about things because she very respectfully abhors excuses, which I'm full of.

the way way back



I get so obnoxious and cheesy when it comes to having sisters.  For one, I think the idea of sisters fits my aesthetic preferences so much.  Maybe it has something to do with watching Madeline and the Parent Trap too much as a child.  Also, I get consumed with horrible pride whenever either of them comes to me with a question or some way to impress me.

When I was a few years younger, and still cruel to Sabrina, my dad would often berate me for this, and he would always find a way to let me know in the end of our conversation that all my sister wanted was "to impress me and have me like her".  My heart always broke and I ended the day being overly nice to her, which would then lead to me becoming angry and cruel again whenever she didn't reciprocate.


catedrál candelabro


I made a pact with Sabrina over half a year ago.

We promise each other a lot of things, and I know that she can be very nonchalant about the things she tells me, and the things I tell her, but I make sure to keep it in my heart that I will stay true to my promises to her.

One of our pacts is to legally be drunk in front of one another for the first time.  This means that I will wait until she's 21 so that we can both be piss-drunk, as the kids say, This works out fine for me, considering how scared I am of alcohol.  We also plan to live together and try to become adults together for at least a little bit because we're not really sure how letting go of people works yet.


(tears) zócalo de puebla


We went to Mexico recently to visit some family and see some prettyness and I got really emotionally attached to my camera and my sisters' beauty.  The end.

4 comments :

  1. That's nice. I think it's cool you and Sabrina made a pact like that. And being piss drunk in front of a good friend isn't that bad... also, to live together is nice too. It's good to have you back by the way, it's been awhile !

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  2. Really enjoyed looking through you blog! Will definitely be back! Especially when I need some inspiration!

    Authentic Alice

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  3. This is a really sweet post. Sisters can be a pain sometimes, I have just one younger sister, only 3 year gap which is not that big I guess. How old is your sister? Is there quite a gap between you? it's lovely to read how you are close x

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  4. Oh just watched the video too, is that your sister in video, she's super cute :)

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