16 February, 2013

Get Out

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✍ CURRENTLY WRITING FROM: BIG BEAR, CALIFORNIA

I sometimes go on worrisome spurts of joy which make me dizzy.  I was inspecting my nails and then I realized how pretty they looked in the dark, with only my string of lights hanging by my window shining on them.  I was so overwhelmed by my appreciation of my clean nails that I decided to love everything.  I was so happy to love my friends and to love the pair of shoes next to my bed which I've had since I was a freshman and still fit me.  I was so happy to love the kind people of the world and to love the amounts of chocolate I would be eating next week.  I was so happy to love the way my hair curled after taking a shower and how much I had been reading recently.

I suddenly felt very deep and I told myself: "Some people say that happiness is exhausting and too hard, which is why they feel like falling into sadness is much easier, but I disagree, happiness is so easy if you try!"

I tiptoed to my door and creaked it open and looked out into our hallway and heard the peaceful chorus of four sleeping people snoring and it made me smile a teensy weensy until I remembered why I got out of bed in the first place: I really wanted to tell my little sister I loved her.

But she was asleep.  I couldn't!  How could I let her know that I love her ever again without meaning it as much as I did right now, when I am so happy!?

So now I'm in my room and it's really dark and the snores coming from outside now feel like taunts and I'm scared to sleep.

7 comments :

  1. as long as there's no snores coming from underneath your bed or inside your closet, hopefully you're safe to dream.

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    1. Oh my Godthere goes my night. I'm going to embroider this on a pillow.

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  2. I wouldn't be afraid, I feel like she'll understand once she reads this little love note

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  3. This is beautiful, always love yourself and appreciate all life has to offer. Have a great week Jessica! xx

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  4. ach winter can be such a bummer sometime.

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  5. Love the gorgeous skies in the first shot.

    Christie x

    Dark Blue Stripes

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Thank you, pal.